About a month ago I was about to drive back home from my Monday night bible study group. I went home, then went back out to go drive.
Just to go drive? Yes.
Where? Just around.
I don’t know what was going on within me that night, I just know I wanted to drive, listen to some Switchfoot, and drive around. All I remember was driving ,and praying. I don’t remember much of what I was praying about behind the wheel ,but what I do remember was feeling a strange sense of sadness in my heart ,and just had a lot on my mind.
So I went out driving around 10pm to about 11:30-11:45pm. While driving I was listening to a whole lot of Switchfoot’s new and old songs. One of there newer songs was “I Won’t Let You Go” and had that one on repeat.
Then I listened to another song that truly spoke to me called the Shadow Proves the Sunshine ,and once I parked into my parking space, you can guess what I did, yeah you guessed it, I broke down ,and cried. There was a part that hit me ,and I NEEDED to hear it.
“The shadow proves the sunshine, yeah, yeah, shine on me”
Just to hear Jon Foreman’s brokenness as he was singing those words just broke me ,and it made me realize how broken I was. Sometimes pain can mark you ,and make you stronger or it can break you but the choice is for us to make.
I once had a thought that you can have the worst day possible ,and yet still have joy. Still don’t fully understand what that means ,but its totally opposite of what anybody would think, it’s completely unnatural to have joy in the midst of tradegy or pain. The natural response would be to cry out or just totally lose it.
Now having joy doesn’t mean the pain isn’t there, or that you don’t acknowledge that its there. Its about acknowledging and amitting that its there ,but also knowing that you can’t stay in your pain forever. Joy at some point must take root but obviously that is entirely up to the individual.
Change is hard, even challenging at times, but its necessary ,and so worth it.
God bless, and stay awesome people, love y’all.